Reality Check

Is it okay to love someone without ever actually going out with them? I first saw him when I was 15 at my sister's friends graduation party. Ever since them I can't stop thinking about him. I wonder is this just a case of not having what I want or is it something deeper and more meaningful?

Checking In

So what is new? Nothing much. I have a job and a new place to live and in about 6 months will have another new place to live, but with people I actually want to live with. I am finally within a talking distance to the guy I like, but who will never know I exist, unless... I have to do something about it. I think I might just get up on the stage and yell it across to the whole audience and then he has to do something right? I just hope it will be good. I am really trying to be good but sometimes it is just really hard. I just hope that people accept me for what I am right now and not for who I was back then. I know life kind of sucks right now but I am trying to make it right and I hope that my friends will stick with me in the meantime. Loves,