Hello, so anyway I really don't know what I am going to be doing from now on. I know I have to get a job but I also have to leave soon. I am just waiting for Jacky's graduation and party to be over but then I am going to leave and go somewhere else. I am not sure where exactly but when I know everyone else will know . Nothing is keeping me here except for Jedediah and I can still keep in touch with him. Everything is so much easier these days and me leaving will be better for everyone else also. So my mind is made up and that is that.

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Weekend

So I had my last final. Yay!right. nope. I still have saturday then i have to get a job and get out. I have to say goodbye to some of my friends. These kids really have never done anything wrong but they have. I knew this day would come but I didn't think it would be this soon. I hate them for this but at the same time if they ever need anything I would be there for them in a heartbeat. I have to tell them goodbye for one last final time. This time it is for real and it really sucks because no matter what happens saturday they can't be in my life any more. I have to quit living this way. THIS SUCKS!!!!!

Finals

I feel happy today, which is weird for me. So I have two more finals and then i am free all friday. After that I am busy all day saturday. PROM! I think I will have fun. Dancing YAY! I love to dance, which sucks in my group of friends because they never want to go out dancing.
Nothing big has happen lately. I came off the medicine and have to go back to the doctor to get more or have more test run. YAY! NOT!!!!! Just wanted to update byes

So....

I have been writing these poems, but I am not going to post them at least not yet. They are kind of depressing. Not kind of, they are depressing. Anyways, I am going to prom this year, even though I have been out of high school for two years. But I am going, because I got asked and I think it will be fun. My little sister and her and my friends and then the after party it will be really fun. I think I will have more fun because I really don't know anyone except my friends. So, I will be myself.

Loves

Hellos!!

So I was going to write a poem up here but it is kind of depressing. But, HEY, guess what that is life. I was doing great then BOOM! I found out someone that I know is doing something wrong. This is the second time this year. The first one I was really pissed off at because he made a commitment, this guy I really don't know that much but I still know him. Why are guys so stupid? Who really knows? And this guy acts like he doesn't care that he is like hurting everyone he knows. STUPID!

Why?

Man I really hate feelings. Do you know why? Because most of the time the person you have those feelings doesn't have those feelings back. You then look like a complete idiot. Not the best thing for the first person or really the second person. I think it is easy to say it sucks. I really need to just get over him. But how do you get over someone who you have liked for years. And people who know me personally and reading this no it is not that guy but the other one i could actually have. I am just scared to talk to him. How sad is that I can go climb rocks and (little) mountains. Do other scary things but I can't go talk to him. How stupid and pathetic. hehe

So there is this thing I am supposed to for my mass communication class. But I don't know if I will do it or not. Should I show 60 people I don't know my life?